Missing myself

Yesterday, I wrote about how Mike and I have been missing each other. While writing that post, I realized that I kind of miss myself too.

Part of the reason we’ve been feeling disconnected is because I’ve been kind of depressed this week. Every day, all I wanted to do was go home and watch TV.  I didn’t feel like writing, I didn’t feel like reading, cooking, cleaning, brainstorming, anything. I just wanted to go sit on the couch, watch TV, and go to bed. I don’t feel overly sad, I just feel blah, not motivated to do anything. Yesterday morning it was so bad that I seriously considered calling out sick and just laying in bed all day.

This isn’t a new feeling for me, especially during the winter. But this also isn’t me.  I’m usually upbeat and excited and engaged, not just going through the motions. I don’t like operating like this.  But when I feel like I did this week, it’s hard to do anything else.

Instead of panicking over this feeling I told myself I’d give my body what it needs for the week and hopefully by the weekend I’d feel better.  I tried not to put pressure on the situation because being down over feeling down just makes the experience more painful.

I had a productive day at work yesterday and after a lunch time walk, I felt like myself again. Then Mike and I met for dinner and caught up a bit.

Now as the sun comes up over the District, I have the whole weekend ahead of me and I’m so glad I’m back to my normal self. I hope to write a lot, and be productive on some other things (maybe even run the numbers through my entire debt snowball). Other than that, Mike and I are going on a date tonight (planned during our text convo the other day) and I’m looking forward to having lunch with Jordan tomorrow. Here’s to a fun, energizing, and productive weekend.

Happy Saturday!

I’d love to know:

Do you ever feel not like yourself? How do you get through periods like this?

What are you up to this weekend?